>> Tuesday, 31 July 2007

Ooh, there'll be a new student in our class! Her name is Tan Wei Wern/Hui Wen/however her name is spelled, from Johor. We were soooo welcoming, I think we rock.
But it's almost trials already! Is she an exchange student like Marshall? xD

I owe people 2 articles:
01. The Star thingy
02. MPH Search for Young Malaysian Writers 2007
03. Fiction #1 (gonna finish! yay!)
04. Fiction #2 (just started - long way to go)
05. Fiction #3 (Mandarin) (just started - writer's block)
06. Fiction #4 (Mandarin) (just started - I think I'll cancel this)


This guy got caught is it?
R&B version of Negaraku is nice! I conclude that Negaraku is nice. Now we have a new song to sing for Merdeka day xD
I wanna watch 1957 Hati Malaya! Cuz Mohamad Kamarulzanam Taib is cute xD

A History of Forgetting is a darn great book. No, Jo, not because of those weird scenes and French. Denis seems like a charming man - when he was young and not gay, of course. Swastika is the Nazi symbol. Ooh.


Passion, courage, and the poor Koreans

>> Sunday, 29 July 2007

The world is crazayy!

Trials. Gah. I've studied some Physics. Add Maths should be alright. Chemistry, well, should be alright too. Biology. Har-har. I've not been studying that. Too many things! And I don't like plants! All those cambium, bleah. BM, BI, all the literatures, are NOT interesting, though Di Sisi Rinda by A. Samad Said and Aku, Kris dan Kristal are niiiice. Seriously.

Don't ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive, and go do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive. -- John Eldredge, Writer

Fear is the opportunity for courage, not proof of cowardice. -- John McCain

Pain nourishes courage. You can't be brave if you've only had wonderful things happen to you. -- Mary Tyler Moore

Courage is doing what you're afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you're scared. -- Eddie Rickenbacker

To keep our faces toward change, and behave like free spirits in the presence of fate, is strength undefeated. -- Helen Keller

Helen Keller is my idol. I look up to her! For being so strong!

I got RM5 from Pn. Saik for donations! ^^ Next target: Pn. LIM MUI LEE The Sarcastic

I want NS! But I'm too young. =( I dont wanna be with those "younger" than me (whom are same age as me but I always consider myself as 17. psychology, dont mind me) cuz I'll feel so lonely cuz there's an "age gap". With people same age as me wth.
I'll force kerajaan to let me join NS haha. I wanna use M16 and go bungee jumping and wet myself in mud and be picked by monkeys and be sucked by leeches and get chased by butterflies (I fear butterflies!) and get scolded by trainer and listen to "boring" classes and *breathes* get to know people from everywhere besides from SMKDJ! =D
Besides, it would be such a great start for 2008, a nice prelude to hellish Form 6.
I kinda look forward to hell. Cuz after hell, you meet with heaven.
Well, that's what people say. "University life is heaven because you've been through hell in form 6."
You'll never know the happiness and joy of heaven before you've been to hell. ;)
Hmm, hell reminds me of oh-gosh-so-drool-able Keanu Reeves in Constantine. I'll watch again this holidays. And Constantine reminds me of Pride & Prejudice and The Constant Gardener. I love colourful movies!
Hmm, Ratatouille (or however you spell it) seems nice. Maybe cuz it's rats HAHA.

p/s Hit counter is hitting 1k! I congratulate myself first hehehe.


The Nigerian is back?!

>> Friday, 27 July 2007


Ok I'm really doin' nothing these days... but I promise to study Physics and finish my EST tonight!

Guess who I saw on the way to Atria?
I saw him walking from the auto shop. So I looked at him. He was wearing a singlet and had a bag and he was looking down. I was looking at him cuz he looked so freakin' familiar. Look. Look some more. Then he looked up.
EH?! Chern Jie?!
I almost pointed at him, but he waved to me, so I waved to him too.
The reason I'm going online today is to spread the message that I saw Chern Jie.
Hmm, should've talk to him a little.

My memory is deteriorating. Trials is killing me.

I'm gonna list down 50 Things I Should Do In Life. Wait till I finish the list. ;) I tried few weeks ago. I only listed down a few, less than 10. And I'm out of ideas. Bleahh. I must concentrate.

I'm gonna miss the good ol' library and the weird afternoon session librarians who can't seem to get enough of me HAHA and make noise in the library.


High School Musical 2: Sing It All Or Nothing! looks nice, though it's going towards the pop songs side. Musicals arent supposed to be like that!

I have so many to-dos to do. Bleahhh.

I'm part-time lion in Zoo Negara. Remember to take a photo with Sofia the Lion!
Har har.

Know what I'm suddenly not that interested in prom. For this period only. Something happened. So I didn't ask mommy about it. The only highlight about prom is... metallic cocktail dress! Golden strappy heels! Glam but natural make-up like Hayden Panettiere's (do you spell it like that?)! Beautiful people! Waltz, Rhumba, wtv, dance! Get to know new people! (I like meeting new people cuz you get to make the first move and it's VERY satisfying ;) I prefer making the first move than being made cuz you get to choose the people you wanna meet instead of being chosen ;)
Food is not really my priority for these functions. I don't even much, but the reason of me being so... chubby / voluptuous is because of yummy chocolates and biscuits and cakes and sweets and all heavenly food!
So, now you know, the way to Win Zee's heart is through her stomach! HAHA.
Jo wanted a passionate, very very passionate, very very very very passionate, very very hawt and wet and PASSIONATE kiss.

Rachel McAdams and Ryan Gosling

I just want something gentle. I shan't be hurt like that! Nanti I cannot makan! xD

From Pride &Prejudice

I'll feel soooo loved!
Ok la so they didnt kiss but what the heck that look much more intimate and warm even in the morning mist. Ahhhh.
(To Jo: Refer to this for "kissing tips and techniques" lol. Saw it when googling for image la!)

I wanna watch Music & Lyrics and The Perfect Stranger!

Well since I've already started...
(There was supposed to be a kiss! x(

Elizabeth Bennett

Elizabeth Bennett and Mr. Darcy

Again. Oh, the pride!

Couldn't you just let me dream about it?! x3



>> Thursday, 26 July 2007

Overheard in Malaysia - Crazy quotes from crazy Malaysians xD

JJ's The Killa mini movie is VERY disturbing.

I wanna go see World Music Festival in Penang. =(
I'm sooo gonna be a reporter - I can go to Penang to see World Music Festival! xD It seems so tribal! x3

15 more days to trials. GAH. We had it so early and for almost A MONTH BUUUT we only have it for 12 days! Do you know how irony this is?
September 15! Come and see me starve in Bukit Jalil stadium! xD

I wanna watch TUNKU the Musical. The main reason is that my piano teacher's sister is in the musical!
Here, here, and Zamil Idris's blog.

Life is boring. Bleahhhh. Even this post seems sooo boring. I know I'm supposed to study! (Especially my Biology and Sejarah; I promised to study those two days ago.) But, what the heck, nearing trials = nearing SPM = nearing holidays = nearing part-time job(s) at Borders/MPH/Yuk Chai (I wanna be a temporary teacher xD)/Yamaha (temporary music teacher LOL) = nearing F6 = nearing Taman Sea.
Chain reaction.

Waning officially became a cannibal.
"Human is the cause of global warming. To reduce global warming, the human population must decrease. Therefore cannibalism should be practiced."
Some more she argued with Dillion and Wei Wern and Jian Ming until very hangat. Heat energy can convert to electrical energy. (Hmm, reading Kenny Sia makes me write like that.) But, still, cannibalism is violating the rights of human's freedom! It's like WAR! And, by reading Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl will make you understand why war and Hitler and Nazis and anti-Jews are just totally crazayy. Cannibalism will make us live in fear, and the way to reduce global warming is definitely not something so radical like that la.
I was trying to find laws about raping the dead (or, in a more disgusting way, corpse) to convince Waning that there is such law. I watched on CSI la! Someone was arrested because of doing that kind of offence. Then I found this - Sexual Offences Act from UK. Interesting. But law is never my choice.

I must learn to say 'yes' instead of 'yeah'.
Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes.
This reminds me of the scene from My Fair Lady where Prof Higgins wanted to teach Eliza 'cup of tea' instead of 'cuppa tea'. Cup cup cup cup of of of of cup cup cup cup. Eliza was dead hungry. There was a tart left. Prof Higgins: Ah, who should eat this? Eliza: *drools* Prof Higgins: *gives to parrot*
Then the servant sang: "Poor Professor Higgins, poor Professor Higgins. Night and day and day and night, oh poor Professor Higgins!" (or something like that)
Eliza's golden quote: I'ma good gal, I am!


Librarian hi-tea @ Nikko Hotel

>> Saturday, 21 July 2007


Nikko Hotel's foods are great! And I'm bloated! And I don't care! xD
It was kinda boring in the first place cuz I'm alone. Alone is not lonely! And then a girl from Tmn Sea approached me. (Tmn Sea prefects' hi-tea is at the same place, same time.)
Girl: Hi, what's your name? *laughs*
Me: Uhh... Win Zee?!
Girl: I'm whoever and I wanna tell you that *laughs* I'm hawt and blablablabla.
Me: Oh... kay. Weeeeird.
Leannza: You got dared?
So we played Truth or Dare, with Weng Yew, Leannza, Amanda, Itianne, Kai Fu?.
But since it's not exciting enough we played DARE OR DARE. DAMN FUN WEIH SERIOUSLY.
And I decided to study at Tmn Sea for form 6. Nyehehe.
There's this F2 guy from Tmn Sea, call Christopher, who is almost similar to Neal. Sarcastic. Sporting! And a F1 boy who can act bimbo.
Took very little photos as I was busy playing Dare or Dare nyehehe.
And I'm so regret! ARGHHHHH!!! (This'll last for a while)
I tell you Kevin got a really weeeeeird dare.
Open the first 2/3 buttons of his shirt.
OMGGG. Scary.
"But I have Spiderman suit inside."

Fifth formers. I'LL MISS THE DARE OR DARE.
L-R Kevin, Win Zee, Hwee Ching, Xin Hui, Yin Yee

Kevin. Sorry. Was bored nyehehe.

Piano found in another restaurant.

Some decoration on the third floor. I'm not allowed to take photos! *gasp*


Oops. Not ready.

Neal to Ee Lin: You know, Ee Lin, sometimes your boyfriend can come in handy.
Sai Mun went to hotel by taxi then bus.

And then, in school,

Pengerusi 07/08 LOL. Going to 1U later with Pn. Monica and family.

Nigel is sadly victimised. First Amanda slapped him (which actually is just touch). Next Christopher proposed to him. Next I slapped him (which is actually just sound effect) and said "I love you" to him. I dont wanna sing Negaraku! xD

#1 Cant think of any embarrassing moments
#2 Drank ice-cream + pepper
#3 -
#4 Proposed to Kee Kean (or however his name is spelled) HAHA.
#5 "Slapped" Nigel and said "I love you"

Guo Tung is like "Why are you taking photos of him (Nigel)? You like him ar?!" *exaggerated tone* when he saw me candid-ing Nigel. HAHA. Very funny.


Library happenings.

>> Friday, 20 July 2007

Today is a nice day. =)
Cuz you-know-who is not around! MWAHAHAHA.
And I realized that some guys are just so nice. =)
I wanna go to librarian's "leadership-cum-leisure" camp! On October in PANGKOR THE HEAVENLY HEAVEN. I tell you it's damn unfair x(
Unfair #2 Shawne Kee who is cute and petite has the BEAUTIFUL-EST HAIR.
Some girls are just sooo lucky.
I realized that child-like guys are just sooooo cute. Not childish guys eg. guys who fought for a pencil box during Chemistry. Child-like guys eg. guys who have some child-like ways of doing stuff and saying stuff but actually don't fight for a pencil box during Chemistry. Akaka.
She likes him HAHA that's sooo obvious. Immediately laughs like an idiot when she sees him. Though she always say "why you all always say me and him wan?!" but ask me "eh, he hot or not?" and then "go see if he's here or not." HAHA damn cute la.
Good Morning, Beautiful by Steve Holy is such a sweet and romantic title.

Ah now I'm Sofia. Cuz put Win Zee is weird. I DAMN LOVE THE EFFECT LA! Done in a day.


Don't Forget To Remember Me

>> Thursday, 19 July 2007

I can't believe I cried T____T Such touching lyrics.
Dedicate to Joanne Teo.

Don't Forget To Remember Me - Carrie Underwood

18 years have come and gone
For momma they flew by
But for me they drug on and on
We were loading up that Chevy
Both tryin' not to cry
Momma kept on talking
Putting off good-bye
Then she took my hand and said
'Baby don't forget

Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
There's a 50 in the ashtray
In case you run short on cash
Here's a map and here's a Bible
If you ever lose your way

Just one more thing before you leave
Don't forget to remember me'

This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home
And those bills there on the counter
Keep telling me I'm on my own
And just like every Sunday I called momma up last night
And even when it's not, I tell her everything's alright
Before we hung up I said
'Hey momma, don't forget to tell my baby sister I'll see her in the fall
And tell mee-ma that I miss her
Yeah, I should give her a call
And make sure you tell Daddy that I'm still his little girl
Yeah, I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be
Don't forget to remember me'

Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but
'Lord I feel so small sometimes in this big ol' place
Yeah, I know there are more important things,
But don't forget to remember me
But don't forget to remember me'


This is gonna be long.

Well. That happened too long ago, so I can't promise you accuracy x( Not feeling that bubbly today, nor am I feeling emo ;)
Ok let's start. I'll TRY to answer according to the numbering which I hope I won't elaborate or relate to other stuff lol.
Ok now I'm chattin with a I-dont-remember-what-nationality guy now. DAMN FUNNY LAR.

#1 Scale of 1 to 10: Hmm, I think it should be uh 2 or 3. I'm not that evil la!
#2 Why & in detail: You asked this before la -__-;; Umm because of insults? Well... umm this is so embarrassing xD Umm let's see you uh said something (you asked this, so I'll answer later #7). I remembered that. Before that you said about some other people too but I don't remember. It's during Chemistry, in Science lab 1 or 2, we sat by the window, I think there's 5 of us. And you said sth (you asked this, so I'll answer later #8) and I said sth BAAAAAD and just walked away after Chemistry. You knew it too! Hmm, maybe you don't remember. And the 2nd case is that you and her like said I'm old cuz I'm Sophie. You knew that too. That's when we were in Chemistry in Chem lab. (Huh? I hate chemistry? o_O)
#3 Avoid: Well, maybe a little. Not too much, of course.
#4 Time: Hmm, around mid-year? Don't remember.
#5 Friend: Hah before that I just knew you as a friend. Everyone I know is my friend! (Besides you-know-who) And during that time I think I consider you as just somebody.
#6 Tell: Cuz I don't tell all these stuff. I don't tell people about present stuff. Like I don't "I like whoever!" but "I like whoever before." But it's quite obvious, you know.
#7 What way: Oh you insulted my face. My dad? Don't remember. But now it's ok lar. And the 2nd case you said I was old like Sophie and blabla but I don't remember.
#8 Line: Not exactly. Umm. You demonstrated my face? jaw? and you laughed with her and you demonstrated the way I eat like a stork LOL.
#9 Still?: Nah. I don't hate people that long. Don't like to hate people la.
#10 Now?: Hmm I'm not sure if you're still insulting me. Cuz even if you do I would be pei4 he2-ing you two or I'm ignoring you two.
Conclusion (since you MAY want one): I answered you sincerely! Very! And it seemed kinda harsh. Must've learned from Waning HAHA. But yeah I answered you. Happy? xD DON'T CRY!!! I'm a baaaad counsellor. I only listen.

OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M FLIRTING o_O Life must be really bored for me to lower my standard - virtual flirt. OMG WTF.
You know what I THINK I know what bf usually say to. Ok this seems kinda personal, although nothing gasp-able (it rhymes!), since he has never (really) seen my face...
HAHAHAHA. Ask me in real if you're ba gua.

I think I'm a psychic. Cuz I take hints! But syarat is that I must be close to that person lol. I observe people very closely mwahaha.
You seemed like you were caught red-handed when I told you about it. Was it wrong for me to say that? =(
Taking hint is sooo fun xD
Umm well we noticed some changes. Maybe you didn't notice. Well, you might not.

Umm we did a sinful thing yesterday. I did TWO sinful thing yesterday. #1 I told her to go to toilet. #2 We practice vandalism. OMG. I hope they won't be mad at me! Cuz I seem so evil! x( Especially #2!!! I even hope nobody noticed that. It was for fun, seriously.
Hehe Jo and I had a great chat yesterday and we were practically not listening to Pn. Saik lol.
I realized we are great sisters. We are protective of our siblings! We are soo sweet xP

Hehe, I like to be said confident ^^ That's my aim! I hope I'm not overconfident.
I still think I'm irresponsible, selfish, childish and loud. Hehe misunderstood unethical. What I wanna say is that I'm not superstitious and religious. I always think I'm an atheist. (If my parents know this I'm DEAD.)

Refers to persons not inclined toward religious belief or a particular form of religious belief. An atheist is one who denies the existence of a deity or of divine beings. An agnostic is one who believes it impossible to know anything about God or about the creation of the universe and refrains from commitment to any religious doctrine. Infidel means an unbeliever, especially a nonbeliever in Islam or Christianity. A skeptic doubts and is critical of all accepted doctrines and creeds.
Nothing is right at this moment, of course.
I don't think I'm inflexible, simple, insecure, ignorant, boastful, blasé (Jo thinks it's a nice word so she chose it LOL), self-satisfied, overdramatic, predictable, inattentive and unreliable. Aloof = at a distant/reserved. I must admit that I am -__-;; I'm inflexible? Hmm. I'm not that ignorant; I don't lack in knowledge T___T At least I dont think so. Oh so self-satisfied = vain. I thought everyone is vain o_O Oh, I'm insecure? Didn't know that. Am I really predictable? T___T Sad cases. I'm full of flaws x(
Nobody says I'm patient! But I really think I am! xD

I skipped Hari Sukan HAHA.


Everything about feelings

>> Monday, 16 July 2007

Currently listening to: Don't Forget to Remember Me - Carrie Underwood

I think I'm a bit abnormal.
I like reading emo posts. Especially from people who seems like always =D It's like reading every bits and details of the other side.
*points at myself* Aiyah I always =D but the other side aka emo side rarely comes up. Maybe because I consume antidepressants HAHA touch wood. I don't like to be too emo or sad. It gets into the way of EVERYTHING. Even beloved piano. (Daniel Radcliffe is waaaay behind Chopin and piano) But sometimes when I'm in extreme emo, red mood, I MUST play the piano or write about my feelings, longhand, which I allow myself to whine and complain once in a while. I need something to cheer me up. Or else I couldn't do anything. NOTHING at all. Sometimes, force is essential.
Yea, I agree. I'm phlegmatic. Like Pn. Lim. Pn. Lim Win Zee HAHA. My godly Chemistry tuition (too-ee-syen) said that it's good to be detached from family. Not too attached. Or else we'll experience great loss. Cuz one of her childhood friend passed away because of heart attack (but she was in last stage of lymph node cancer) and her husband said, regretfully, "I didn't do anything for her when she's still alive."
OMG. That's a sad thing.
And then godly Chemistry tuition teacher said "I tell my son that he has hao shun his parents when we're still alive. *laughs* Aiyah, young people don't listen to these nonsense."
Is that the reason I'm not like soooo close to my family? Hmm.

Omg! Mummy's birthday's is this Wednesday!

Waning damn geng. Arrange A la nanita (a Spanish lullaby, watch Cheetah Girls 2) in I-dunno-how-many-voices! Walau damn geng x)
Be patient. It'll end in a blink.
That means less, slimmer chance to see the cute afternoon session librarians. =( They're so cute la! Rumours around haha.
I lurrrve rumours. I mean, cute rumours like "horrr Win Zee likes whoever ha~~" I tell you it's damn cute. Seriously! Even now when think back during Form 1 and 2 when there was this rumour which spreaded very faraway about Sern and me. I had never hate him! Maybe because I had never believed the rumour, despite that it had continue for three years (according to Jo). Haha but I don't like the song. MY GOD. I just remember "they are happy in *toot*" which is bed. Haha wth. I always thought "he likes me doesn't mean that I like him!" but I've never said it out. So yeah now you know.
I always, always pray that those (ok only 1) who are really ugly and disgusting and impolite and sick and retarded and *breathes* won't be tall, dark and handsome in the future. Cuz if he does it'll be embarrassing. It's like:
"Omg! Who's that hawt guy?"
"Oh, that one ah, it's *censored* lor."
"Uh huh."
*shakes shoulder* "ARE. YOU. SERIOUS??!!!! *calms down* Or did he go for plastic surgery?"

Oh. Actuarial science is about statistics. Like 20 years old you buy this insurance, what you'll get in 22 year, 23 year, blablabla and when you die how much you'll leave and how much others will get. More on statistics.
I hate statistics. I only memorise formulae.
Ah, I don't question formulae. Cuz we were trained not to. "It's just like that" they all say.
Mass comm or psychology?!

Pn. Lim is disappointed in us =( I'm so lazy. I've not been doing my homework. Well, most of it. Especially normal distribution and BM. Gah. I'm such a failure. Bleah.
This is gonna end by end of the year. Jia you.

Last question: What am I gonna wear for librarian hi-tea? Dress code: Smart and Casual. Can wear jeans but I don't wanna. Want something non-revealing and cheap. And able to show my physique beautifully HAHA. No la no need that exaggerating. Something nice will do.


Harry Potter 5

>> Sunday, 15 July 2007

Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix

I just watched Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix at 23.55PM yesterday with no popcorn and coke. Damn cool. I wanna watch Die Hard 4.0, Dead Silence and Perfect Stranger! Saw my piano teacher, the vocal teacher and I-think-it's Lee Shiak Yao haha.
Grrrrreat visual effects! Very artistic. Grrrrrrreat script! Some very corny and VERY meaningful lines. I love you, all crews of HP5! Hehe, I always love the Indian guy who I bought the tickets from. Very friendly.
Of course, there is always someone sexy in movies. Eg:




Omggggg.x3 Jo says I have a thing for sexy guys. British accent is sexy. I know you agree with me ;)
Luna Lovegood (Evana Lynch) is like really... paranoid. Hysterical. Dunno how to describe. She speaks softly, sometimes strange things, but she's smart. A little crazy lol but I like her character.

Luna Lovegood - Evana Lynch

The "horses" (Thestrals) of the horseless carriage is a little "different". Grawpy is such a cute giant xD


Tsk tsk. Baaad James Potter. Bully Snape.
Why do I remember that in one of the HP books Hermione is juggling with a lot of subjects for some exam and she has a time travelling little ball thing and the gang uses it to save someone? I like that part!
They say that Harry's first kiss with Cho Chang lasts like 30 seconds. o_O Aiyah who has such free time to count?
They kiss in the Room of Requirement, under mistletoe that mysteriously grew! x3 So romantic!

Ron: How does it feel?
Harry: Wet.


Cream puffs

>> Friday, 13 July 2007

Currently listening to: Tarzan, Terk - Who Better Than Me

Mommy doesn't allow me to go to prom. She scared I kena tipu and you know what will happen.
She's too protective. -__-;;
But anyways, I can go to librarian hi-tea! Yay.
Waning!!!!!! I wanna see him!!! x( Haha not like I'm that desperate.
Btw, The MPH Search for Young Malaysian Writers 2007 has begun!
Tell us a short story in the day of a life of the typical Malaysian in contemporary Malaysia that illustrates what it means to be Malaysian.
I wanna enter! Even though my English sux. Hehe I remember last year I joined too and I posted my story (Eternity). Omg that's such a stupid story lol.
I hope I'm more mature - that way I won't write such childish omg-so-embarrassing story lol!
Malaysian. Hmm. *Brainstorm*
Hah. What Mariyam said to us today.

My cousin. 10 years old. ALREADY IN PUBERTY o_O

My little cream puff cousin!

Cream puff again. OMG DAMN CUTE LA.

I think I'm addicted to black pen monochrome drawing. o_O I just drew an apple during tuition (too-ee-syen).
Yay I collected RM104! xD When the card is full I shall give it to them. Or maybe I'll get another one. But I have nobody to ask for. Never mind la, see first.
Zhun Chieh is so cute xD Stands like a girl. Someone said that, not me. But I agree in my mind HAHA. Evil polite me.
I wanna make the human cutout thingy.
Jo wants me to analyse some stuff. Wow, the first time I'm analysing my feelings instead of food and clothes lol. (I'm very indecisive.) That'll take some time.

Every family has its imperfection. Imperfect, imperfect home. From Waning's blog.
I like reading her blog la, so essay-ish. Very emo but very essay-ish. -__-;;
Haha my family is very protective and very bao4 shou4 (not close minded). Well my mommy can accept mostly anything and can talk about anything and is very neutral and is sth like Pn. Lim (that's where my neutral-ness comes from) and daddy is superstitious. -__-;; Bro is vaaaain and sis is very good girl and hardworking and super stubborn lol.
Hah they almost always ignore me playing the piano. When they notice it's when they need me to be quiet or it's extremely baaad to their hearing like Poulenc's 3rd Novelette lol.
Ahhhh. Piano. So many times I wanna play it in the middle of the night, admiring my own playing admiring Chopin's extremely genius Nocturne.



>> Thursday, 12 July 2007

Oh. So percentage change is 10% huh. I see. RM2000 handphone LOL.
(Damn weird la why must use handphone? I prefer books xD)
Omg! HAHA!
I realized that talking for 10 minutes 19 seconds to 2 different people, 1 I know and 1 I don't and using handphone on left ear is a really torturing way of torturing me. I can't stand heat (but somehow I'm black. too much melanin?) and I'll complain and I have high specific heat capacity so it takes a longer time to cool me down.
My left ear is burning. Ahhhhh. Ouch.
Waning you're gonna pay.
You know what I realized that I'm more comfortable speaking to strangers in English.
Omg. I'm becoming a banana. Must be the side effects of eating too much bananas and durians. Yumm.
Hmm. Somehow I'm feeling kinda satisfied (ah so satisfied is spelled like that). Haha. That's my wish when I first enterred DJ.
To become a walking banana in a vain, singing, talking machine.

Joanne passed me 2 Tim Tam dunno why, 4 Il Divo papers from Galaxie (akaka), and 1 chain thingy for Shu Zhen's birthday.
She's leaving tomorrow =( Can I go to the airport and see her off?
Hehe I love the airport cuz you can see tons of different colours walking around and listen to weird languages. Damn cool.
And I'm more comfortable talking to Joanne in English. I think my English is better when I'm talking to her than other walking bananas o_O

To everyone: If you wanna send me stuff, especially IMPORTANT stuff like add maths project send to my gmail la. I rarely check my hotmail accounts. Too slow -__-;;

Haha Jackie did my quiz xD Hey Jackie.

Tsk tsk. Jo put aeroplanes on us. Fang4 fei1 ji1 HAHA. So baik hati, tak ada participate in Hari Sukan, suddenly ada participate, she don't want but she still lari. Baik hati-nya.
I sound like Yu Szen HAHA.

Ooh. So Waning blogged when she reached home. OMG LIKE WRITING AN ESSAY LA. "wooden mechanism". Why must you put such a technical name to my love? T__T
I still want violin. I WANNA PLAY what's the name again... *thinks hard* ROMANCE BY uh someone!!!! Violin violin violin violin violin violin!!! xP
I shall make a wishlist in the blog, in case some rich people who wanna spend their money would like to buy me a quality and expensive violin like his.
Ah, those misunderstandings that rose from the song. Konflik dalaman. =/
I actually deny it, I don't know why.
That feeling actually happened a few times before that. But I denied all of it. It seems that I was afraid. Afraid of what?!
My God, those times were really torturing. x( Tak tau apa nak feel also.
Anyways. That was like soooo long ago. Eh, the exaggerating genes runs in the family! The Teong Exaggerate-ness.
I don't like people looking at me playing piano. It feels so weird and I'm bound to play wrongly. Cuz I'm conscious about their gaze that falls on my back, my face, my fingers, my posture, my feet, the book, the piano. You may watch me halfway through the song. Cuz I'm usually quite warmed up in the middle and blend inside the song and I'll usually ignore you. And if I DO notice that you were looking I wouldn't care less cuz my Mozart/Chopin/oldies are soo much seductive than you. ;)
Ah piano lesson is at 7. I hadn't been practicing much. My piano teacher would be so mad if my Nocturne op. 62 no. 2 is not played well.
I'm learning Nocturne op. 9 no. 1. Self-learn. Hah.
I'll request for Sonata Pathetique, if it's not arpeggio. I don't like arpeggio la, so boring. That's why Prelude (Bach) is damn boring. Yawn-able. Maybe I'll ask her to teach the Nocturne too.
Lalala. Waning says my voice is pop-ish. I like pop-ish voice. Finally something about me that I like. Waning says my house is nice. "Wahhh. Hao mei." "Oh. Uhh hen mei ma? Anyways xie xie."
Bahasa cina rojak presented by Win Zee.
Si Hui says I have quite good communication skills. Heh. Thx. I like being said that I'm not shy ^^
According to Shu Zhen, A-Levels got 70:30, 50:50 and 30:70. Exams:Presentation&Projects. I don't care if I'm shy or suck in presentation or gagap like En. Sia or not. I want 30:70! I lurrrrve doing projects.

No motivation to study. Except doing add maths. Mommy is always right, even though I deny it -__-;;
Laptop is not seductive enough la, daddy. Can you buy me a new piano OR let me learn violin? Pretty please? You know la, techno stuff is not my thing, compare to those heavenly things.
John Lee didn't get scholarship! o_O



Currently listening to: You'll Think Of Me - Brian McKnight

While waiting for Shu Zhen and Jo and Waning to come to my house for add maths project and Joanne to pass me "some stuff" (?)...

Bent Objects is such a cute site. I love the McD fries monster! xD

The cutest and most romantic love story is TARZAN! o_O
The dreamiest and most heartbreaking love story is ANASTASIA!

(Some) photos from Sekinchan trip:

Is this tobacco? *gasp* Tak Nak!

Omg! So tiny! o_O

My feet. If you call me vain, you're weird.
But I kinda like the photo xD

Mangoes for sale *blurred telephone number*
Somehow, this seems funny to me. Hmm.
Trip back from Sekinchan. Awww.

Click to enlarge for the REAL SIZE image.
I can't help but to collage it! DAMN CUTE RIGHT. They love like me! Seriously! xP


No theme

>> Tuesday, 10 July 2007

Currently listening to: You'll Be In My Heart (Reprise) - Tarzan & Kala, Tarzan: The Musical

I wanted to download Disney's Tarzan's OST but accidentally downloaded the musical. Such a wonderful coincidental. ^^
So Tarzan starts from 1888. "Eight years later, Tarzan grows up into an adult and is attacked by Sabor the leopard. Tarzan kills Sabor and earns the respect of Kerchak."
HAHA Sabor. Got Jibor or not? xD

Josh Strickland OMG

Eeyer. I wanna watch Tarzan: The Musical. =( Besides the fact that Josh Strickland is really drool-able, the music is really so nice.

Daddy just got back from Abu Dhabi. I think he had jet lag cuz he woke up at around 1pm today lol.
Omg! Daddy bought 4 bars of chocolate! AHHHHHH. My lover. (Bear with me la. I'm pretty flowery.)

I'm lazy to update my Runaway Princess and Surprisingly... la. So boring. Omg.

Camposing is like not my thing. Now, Waning, not forever. I guess. You don't have to emphasize of me being vain -__-;; My face is merajuk these days and it's not in its good state x( Never mind I don't feel like looking at myself anyways.

My cousins just came last Saturday and brought their cream puff baby winzee. Well, she's not a baby anymore; she should be 1 year old this year. She's cream puff because she's just so OMG DAMN CUTE and winzee cuz the first time I saw her she reminds me of me! o_O Not being vain. Cuz mummy say so too. I'm not afraid of strangers, I smile at them =D and have such cute watery eyes xD Damn cute. Seriously. HAHA. She's my inspiration and she fills up the camera. We need a bigger memory card. Gah, 256MB is too little. (Common lousy) photography is my passion.
Will upload the photos later. Remind me if you wanna see just how OMGSOCUTE she is.
I do weird faces at her, and she'll do it back at me xD But I didn't get to take her face. =( I hope she doesn't grow up cuz she's such a cream puff. I love cream puff.
(Even now cute cream puff took up the post's space lol)
Oh, yay! I found an adjective that exactly describes extremely cute people. Cream puff. JJ is not a cream puff though. Cuz he doesn't have baby fat xD

Jo suddenly talked about dream wedding. I don't care. I don't want those with chinese dinner and uncle auntie go up the stage and sing karaoke and yamseng. Damn bored la. I want it to be on the beach. Must be sunshine. Ask people to bring food for picnic to save buffet money. And then me wearing the bridal gown will jump into the sea and play while hubby try to catch to stop me from dirtying the gown - cuz we rent it instead of buy it, and then I just pull him to the sea and he doesn't care also and play with me.
And then a mermaid came up and sang and then I pointed at her and tell hubby, "Look! That's the mermaid I wrote when I was 16! They must be based on my story and film a movie."

Waning must've wanted a wedding like this. I like white.

I prefer a cute snail car rather than Mercedes =D

HAHA. Jo might want this.

Of course, it will not be a wedding until there's a cake. ;)

Omg! Damn romantic! Some more with cake! xD Ice cream cake would be pretty.

Photoshop is boring cuz I have no inspiration, no nice pics, no new brushes, no new textures, no blabla. Anyways, to sum it all up, no inspiration. Bored.
Waning is vain la. Admit it. xD
Pn. Norela is ebil. Ebil cuz she's in a cute way. Ebil sounds cute. Scary xD



>> Saturday, 7 July 2007

According to, my ecological footprint is 2.1 gha.

FOOD - 0.8

If everyone lives like me, we'll need 1.2 planets.

And according to (based on UK), my ecological footprint becomes 4.1 gha, carbon footprint is 8.1 tonnes.
If everyone lives like me, we need 2.5 planets. Sorry!

Hmm, we should respect poor Mother Nature.
Well, at least I'm doing something. I'm not using plastic bags for little stuffs! And recycle all (stupid) flyers and waste papers and aluminium cans, not accept flyers (if they hand it out in school).
Add Maths project is not as hard as I expected =) Johan a/l Chandran (HAHA) will definitely receives PAMA scholarship. Daddy invest RM300 since he was born, 8% compound interest per annum, invest another RM300 every year until his 18th birthday. 6-figures. Wow. Good example of sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit.

Omg! 070707! I wonder what's the new 7 Wonders of the World. ;) I didn't vote cuz I forgotten. I didn't take part in such a huge event. x(
Hmm. How do you define 'wonders'?
Ahhhh. So slow. I wanna know!

Psychology or Mass Communication? Life College guy said my personality suits mass comm more. He said if he put me in a room I'll die. I nodded. Uh huh. And he said I'm a people person, blabla. Pn. Mary Ann said so too. Jo said my blog is very mass comm. Huh? Then Joanne's blog is very beauty? o_O Mr. Gerard Joseph Louis (Pn. Mary Ann's bro) said that only psychologist gets on front page.
Ok anyway that's not my point.
I'm seduced (to mass comm la). I am such a baaad lover. Malaysia (local universities) cannot do double degree, major minor. Hmph. If I can I might... uh... I'm in the midst of making decisions, which will come to indecisive.
I shall interview everyone I know the questions in doctorjob A-Z explained about Jobs.
Am I a people person?
Hmm I don't mind talking to people. But striking a decent conversation, friendly conversation is hard cuz I kind of separate gong and si very clearly. Uhh work and informal stuff. LOL.
(Bro just told me his urine is PURPLE cuz he ate purple dragonfruit and he thought he was gonna DIE HAHA)
Omgggg. How?! What if I become a sweeping ah ma?! (Nooo I'm not gonna be one, Jo and Waning.)
Mommy said I can be a housekeeper/roomkeeper/whatever you call them. Cuz I do the beds (my cousins and their cousins are coming! for National Marching Band competition) very nicely. Ooh, Maid in Manhattan Kuala Lumpur xD





“你怎么一个人在这里?” 我蹲下来轻声地问,四处看了看。“你的爸爸妈妈呢?”



“你在干嘛?” 我忍不住问。


“你该回家睡觉了。” 我拍拍他的头说。



我生气。不是对他生气,而是他的母亲。世上怎么会有这般的母亲,居然不允许自己的孩子睡觉?“走,带我去见你的妈妈!” 我说,牵起他的冰冷的小手,要他带路。








他的眼睛半睁半闭,每当他的睫毛一阵抖动要闭上,妈妈就会轻声说:“孩子,别睡!” 她一边说一边流泪,他的眼睛勉强睁开一道逢。

“你看,我一睡她就哭!” 他忽然出现在我身旁对我说悄悄话。我看着身边的他,再看床上的孩子,他的爸爸妈妈都看不到他。我明白了。

“你想睡吗?” 我轻声地问。

他犹豫一阵:“我不知道。” 他又打了个哈欠。


他要睡了,他太疲倦了。“让他睡吧。” 我说。







Taken from 《少年》no. 185, edited.


Bitching & Random

>> Friday, 6 July 2007

First of all, this is a cute site.

Some idiot pergi hack Friendster account saya and do you know what he wrote in my shoutbox?
I remember there's 3 'fuck's.
Fuck you la hacker.
Anyways I think it's rather weird. Cuz he only hack into my Friendster account which isn't as important as my precious e-mail. (HAR HAR I'VE CHANGED MY PASSWORDS YOU HAVE NO CHANCE HAR HAR)
Ah, must be Pang Wayne. I went online at the library and logged into my Friendster. He was standing behind me and said "I wanna see your password". I didn't care cuz see la not like he would do anything harmful like that. I mean, my Friendster account is damn boring, for those who crave for adventures.
Iish his reputation is so bad that I couldn't spoil it anymore xD
(I love you Jo for thinking about my reputation which I didn't think of. I'm thinking of how insulted my pride was xD)

However things I'm gonna say later is related to someone I'm close to.
Act cute? Fine. Vain? Fine. Narcissist? Fine!
But wtf BITCHY?! I don't understand. Why the hell am I called a bitch?!
Ok I admit I'm not that open. Don't call me old-fashioned cuz I am not homophobic (nor am I homophilic). Haha anyways I can't accept being called a bitch - especially if you mean it. MY GOD I COULD'VE JUST BLASTED AT YOU LA. But well I'm not trained that way - blast off in front of non-family member. So you are constantly insulting me while I'm already annoyed. Well maybe you were just joking but I couldn't accept being called a bitch. I am so not a bitch.
According to the worship-able,

"BITCH. A she dog, or doggess; the most offensive appellation that can be given to an English woman, even more provoking than that of whore." ["Dictionary of the Vulgar Tongue," 1811]

bitch /bɪtʃ/ –noun
Slang - a malicious, unpleasant, selfish person, esp. a woman.
- a lewd woman.
(Doggess. HAHA weird word.) 'Lewd' reminds me of the name you gave to me during, hmm, form 3? It is so insulting. Since it's so once-upon-a-time I shall not say it again but wtf?! how can you joke about things related to virginity and, even more, PRIDE, like that?!
Well, ok, I've described people as 'bitchy' but I don't mean what I said. What I actually meant was that the girls are more of the popular, girlie, flirty side, not that kind of bitchy. Bitch is such a harsh word, don't you think so? If I call you a bitch and I mean it, it means you're a cheap, low-class, lewd, wanton, (I forgot the related adjectives I used to copy into my black rabbit playboy-like notebook -__-;;), prostitute whore.
Oh, now you're complaining I'm being plain evil like my ancestor Qin Shi Huang?
That's what I felt, ok. That's why I felt so insulted.

Seriously la, what's so bad about act cute-ing? I mean, she acts cute too! Rainie Yang is already cute la so no harm of being cuter.

Anyways for something lighter.
I decided to call myself Sofia. Cuz it looks French-er than Sophia HAHA. Nah not Maia. Maia is too pretty and she's the goddess of May, spring, stuff.
Greek myths are bad influence. I just knew that Venus and Adonis by Shakespeare is based on the myth. Some goddess was by the river, some perverted god pulled her into the water (and you know what happen), and then later got child, born, give to a tree or something, Venus wait by the tree and take the child and give to some other lady, 18 years later Adonis is cute blabla, Venus gets back Adonis and loves him blabla and he dies because something of wild boar.
My god. bu lun zhi lian. Tsk tsk.
Altantuya case is so complicated. Too many witnesses too many people involved and I'm not interested in court.
Haha my kissing spot is under a tree. Weeeird. But trees are nice. xD
LIBRA - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor. Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not repost.
HAHA 5 years of bad luck. Kononnya! I'm still perfectly alright without feeling wanna be in love unlike some people. Dunno why la, like fed up of it or sth. O_O Omg I'm gonna be a nun! *excited*
Psychoanalyze Yourself.

1. You are not alone. You are walking in the woods. With who?
The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important person in your life.

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind?
The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing and before you is your dream house. Describe it.
The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition to solve your problems.

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You'd prefer people not drop by unannounced.

6. You enter the house. You walk in to the dining room and see the dining room table. Whats on it?
If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy.

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?
The durability of the material with the cup is made of is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship.

8. What do u do with the cup?
Your disposition of the cup is representative of your attitude.

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at the edge of a body of water. What kind of body of water is it?
The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire.

10. How will you cross the water?
How wet you get in crossing the water is indicative of the relative importance of your sex life.
AKAKA. Anyways the thing(s) that I should be excited about is 1. tomorrow is Hari Kerjaya! I hope I'll know what I wanna do in the future 2. Joanne is coming to the library and see her juniors and senior aka me the ketua harian! xD
Hmm. Jo doesn't like me wearing lip gloss. I wonder why... But glossy looks kissable AND NO I'M NOT BITCHY. It just looks sexy like Amber Chia's.

Random thoughts: I'd like to think of myself as empathetic, sweet (ok stop puking), shy, responsible feminist. ;)



>> Thursday, 5 July 2007

Your Heart is Feeling Indifference

Your heart is pretty much on hiatus right now.

You're not particularly interested in love, and you're cultivating a sort of romantic apathy.

Whether you've been burned badly or you're just burned out, your heart is cold to passion.

Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: A bit of cold heartedness

Your current outlook on love: Detached and stoic - you try to analyze love from a logical perspective

Your love life will improve if you: Open up a little. Stepping back can help you find peace with your emotions, but it can also make you repress them.

Watch out for: Too much cynicism. Indifference can lead you down a dark path.

Omg. Damn true.

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are wise, insightful, and brilliant.
Your wit is sharp and occasionally hurtful...
Revealing your scorn for people with less intelligence.

Underneath it all, you feel burdened by the stupidity of humanity.
You know what's right in the world, but it's overshadowed by everything that's wrong.
People see you as arrogant. While this is partially true, you are also very sensitive.


Your Psyche is Blue

You are deeply emotional and very connected to everything (and everyone) around you.

By simply understanding other people, you are able to help them heal and let go.

While you are a very deep and thoughtful person, you do have a very silly, superficial side.

When you are too blue: the weight of the world's problems hangs over you

When you don't have enough blue: you lack perspective and understanding

You Are A Blue Girl

Relationships and feelings are the most important things to you.

You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict.

If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well.

You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart.

What Your Peanut Butter And Jelly Sandwich Means

Your eating style is gluttonous. If you like something, you're going back for seconds... no matter how full you are!

You have an average sweet tooth. While you enjoy desserts, they aren't exactly your downfall.

Your taste in food tends to be conservative and traditional. It's likely that you prefer "All American" favorites like mac and cheese or hamburgers.

Admit it, you're a little trashy and low class at times. You're definitely more comfortable at a tattoo parlor than the theater.

You are a tough person who isn't afraid to live life fully. There isn't a lot that scares you.

You are laid back and extremely easygoing. You never make a fuss, and you try to enjoy every moment.

I love PBJ sandwich. I love PB. Hehe gluttonous.



>> Tuesday, 3 July 2007

That explains the unusual hits my counter is receiving. I thought who spammed my blog and made me happy for seeing a huge hit. Hmm, nice people.
Haha but eventually not.
Oh no no privacy! O_O
Haha I'm gonna be popular like xiaxue but obviously not that bitchy la HAHA!
I amuse myself lol.

Happy retirement to fellow prefects. I'm stepping down this Saturday. Omg. I'm old.
Ah! SPM!

Chem tuition teacher said that ppl who hv no money to go overseas can study at local university, work for 5 years, go to US study masters and cabut lari.
Ooh. ;) But I'm more interested in UK. But the exchange rate is x4.5 or x7? Dont rmb lol but higher than US's 3.4. (Malaysia damn geng right?! xD) Ah I'm interested in masters. Cuz I wanna be a psychologist, and to be a psychologist (those who talk to people, not just a psychology graduate) you need a master degree. In uh some years later you'll see me in US working in McD trying to earn my fees.

Shu Zhen's birthday is tomorrow! So I shall wish her an early HAPPY BIRTHDAY to her cuz I wont be onlining tomorrow. Physics extra class. =(

I'm still so random. Shu Zhen say I speak like rao kou ling, what do you call that in English again? Tongue Twister.
I'll try to post more colour aka photos on my blog. So wordy, even I read also yawn.
I should change my blog title. So boring la, always see "I don't wanna grow up". -__-;; Not that interested in French.
Speaking of French, I wrote a short story featuring some French! OMG I DAMN LOVE IT LA. That's why I dont wanna give it to Nostalgia. It's too beautiful! x3 Characters based on my friend in NZ and umm me AHEM. Ok I'm serious. I'm not that pretty la, of course. Nama saya Amorette, love+suffix, something like 'little love'. Thought so long for the Mandarin translation, in the end it's 'little lover' xiao ai ren. Nama dia Anatole, 'rising sun'. I love the sun. But I love drizzle even better.
Damn sweet. Featuring SJK (C) Yuk Chai.
Aiyah sekarang semua dah bocor, tak ada surprise.
And then am currently writing a story featuring an Italian. So boring. -__-;;

To Waning: I'M NOT BITCHY LA! I know I say so (Elastigirl: I know what I said!) but only I am allowed to insult. I'm autocratic so bow down to me. And I'm not act cute! That's so xiham = lala. Ok la I admit sometimes I act cute buuuut! sometimes people gotta express them! I think I was feeling cute that day so I acted cute a lot. (You dont have to question my emotions or cerebrum -__-;;)

Fallopian must be some people's name.
"Yo, Mr. Fallopian/Fallopia."
HAHAHAHA. Ok sorry have some respect.
Graafiaan is some guy's name. He discovered the Graafiaan follicles (must be) and Graafiaan spot aka G-spot. Last time The Star has a section featuring about sex stuff, I think it's because of the sex expo in S'pore (angmo's: not open enough. In our place they demonstrate the way to have sex O_O) so they feature. Dont remember la don't bother. So they talked about sexology (bored people -__-;;) and then stuff about Graafiaan spot.
Mr. Graafiaan (HAHAHAHA) is a German. That explains his weird name.

Trials is like a few weeks away. OMG. I havent been studying seriously. Chemistry's Thermochemistry is interesting. Physic's Electricity stuff is boring. I'm looking forward to Radioactivity. Biology's Reproductive has too many names, secondary oocytes, spermatozoon, endometrium wall, omg. Add Maths is ok. Maths is ok. BM is as usual yawnable. BI is ok. BC is... ok. I guess. Sejarah is OMG. They're not stories at all la, Pn. Daljit! Such boring stories!


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