Sick & Photos

>> Sunday, 29 April 2007

I am so sick.
*cough cough sniff sniff atishoo! atishoo!*
Yes I am that sick.
I hv *cough cough* cough, *sniff* flu and fever! OMG! My eyes my face my body are burnin'. Like Ghost Rider. I'm hawt.
After a really short visit to the doctor I got my medicine.


Mau saya mati ke?!


With a tablespoon of cough medicine. Sweet like hell. I started wondering why do kids love cough medicine. Including pei par kou. Wah! Damn sweet! A tablespoon some more!
After a 2-hour sleep the hawtness heat went down and I'm no longer hawt.
Being sick makes me a pig. I cant take a shower. GOOSH. Sleep the whole day. No appetite. Got appetite also cannot eat la. Cannot eat peanut banana apple watermelon biscuits. My life source some more! So I hv been eating PB&J sandwiches and 3-in-1 Milo Fuze. Heavenly.


I lurve PB&J!


Being sick forces me to read. Cuz I hv to wait for the drowsiness to come so that I can sleep (HAHA). I wanted to read something light, and I chose Before I Forget by Andre Brink (check out about the book). Which is really heavy. I like this paragraph:
There are two moments in the relationship with every woman I have known in my life, which have brought me closer to understanding - even if it was without ever fully getting there -what it means to be alive. One is the moment of orgasm. Not my own, but that of the woman I am with. Because it is immeasurably more wonderful than anything I could hope to feel myself. Seeing - hearing, feeling, knowing = her in the throes of ecstasy, does not primarily bring a sense of achievement, the Little Jack Horner syndrome (Look what a clever boy am I), but a sense of awe: this is what a human individual - this she who is you [Rachel] - is capable of. It is an unfathomable combination of two sensations which ought to be essentially different, and yet are merged: it is a sharing, almost a fusion, which leaves me with a feeling of unspeakable joy, even of gratitude (Thank you for allowing me to be with you in the ultimate moment; but also a feeling of utter solitude. I can see it, hear it, feel it, taste it - but I can never be on the inside of it with you. I cannot even be sure whether I really know what it is like. Is it 'like' my own? Or incomparable? Just as I can never know if what you see at any given moment is exactly the same as what I see. We look at a colour (hey, he uses Brit spelling!). We both call it red. But it is only because we have been taught to call it by that name. There is no guarantee - not ever - that we see it in the same way, that your red is my red. How much more momentous is something like orgasm. But for that very reason your solitude, your quite literal wrapped-upness in it, cannot but bring that experience of what for lack of a better word I call awe.

The other moment is very, very different. And yet not, if one really thinks about it, so different at all. It is the moment when I wake up with a woman in my arms, and see her still sleeping. I raise myself on an elbow. I gaze at her without even for a moment being able to understand anything at all of what I see. You: sleeping. The one I have shared a special experience with; the one I have shared hours, days, months, perhaps years of my life with. Yet, here, in this instant, so utterly confirmed in your youness that you are turned into a mystery, I am conscious of being on the outside of it: it actually makes me feel an intruder, someone who should not be here at all, should not be allowed to gaze upon you in this ineffable moment of sleep. Because here you are totally vulnerable, you have no protections against the world. Except the protection of your own self. Which, being unfathomable, leaves you so naked that you may just as well have been peeled from your skin, a grape, a transparent fruit, light in the heart of light. And that is a mystery, for ever.

And yet by falling asleep beside me, you have sanctioned, silently, this intrusion and this gaze. To sleep with someone can be more intimate than making love. It is a yielding, and a trust, that cannot be compared to anything else. You have granted me this. Can I ever be worthy of it? This is the moment I come closest to understanding something of that overused and misunderstood word: love.
I'm gonna chunk every photos in my photobucket in this post.

In Leo I.U.:












Waning's little birthday celebration:










In Interact I.U.:

He says if Waning develops/posts this photo he'll kill her.
HAHA I betrayed him.


Again.


Waning loves jelly.


Food! Not really yum. Cuz it's orange/spicy.


Hsiu Ling is bored.


SKTM choir. They RAWK. They hv voices of angels.


The mimes. They RAWK.


African guy says he loves me. HAHA.


Si Hui's little birthday celebration:



So stressed when I'm deciding on the caption -____-;;


HAHA.











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